Depression

Seconds ago,
I was in my room
Seconds ago,
I was looking at the ceiling
But now I feel lost
I forget where I am
The cracks on the ceiling blurred
And my ears start to drown
In pain concentrated water

Minutes ago,
I heard people laughing outside my room
Minutes ago,
I felt warmth peeking from my window
But now I feel cold and alone
I close my eyes and try to focus
But it’s too late I’m losing my hold
I shiver and freeze as memories creep in
The light starts to flicker
And the past played without mercy

Hours ago,
I was hoping for a tomorrow
Hours ago,
I was hoping to live once more
But now I feel the world crumbles
Little by little the walls move closer
Voices in my head starts to scream
And once again my sanity left me
To fend off alone in this horror

Weeks ago
I accepted a hand to help me
Months ago
I could still hear my mom’s plea
But now I don’t remember anymore
Why I fought for another day
Is it for me? is it for them?
For a battle I can’t fight off?
Or for me to witness loss over and over?
For me to bear the pain for eternity?
To live the curse I was bestowed with?

Years ago
I lost hope and regain them
And now
I lose it all again
I stand up and move to the window
Watch people around me laughing
While I’m sinking deeper than deep
In darkness, In place I can’t breathe
Why did I choose to burden ones I love
When I can help them
By vanishing right here right now
-Aria Chez

4 thoughts on “Depression

  1. This is very beautifully written.. arranged with words… gave me goosebumps while reading it .. like its so real and i am living in that moment.. !! ♡
    nice work #keepItUp @aria ♡

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